My hair was very long toward the
end of the 1960's. I wore an earring and a ring in my nose. I carried a
crowbar and a meat cleaver, but later found a gun to be more practical. I
used all kinds of drugs including LSD, speed, psilocybin, marijuana,
hashish and alcohol. I rode around with a motorcycle club and wore the
same dirty clothes month after month.
I became
involved in all kinds of crime. One day I might be making arrangements for
a prostitute to turn a trick so I could have my cut of the money. The next
day I might be planning to steal something or selling something that was
stolen or selling drugs. It really didn't matter much to me what it was as
long as I profited by it. I would hurt anyone that got in my way, even my
own family. In fact I had grown so cold in my heart and so far from God
that it would have been very easy to take someone's life. The truth is I
planned on it on more then one occasion. However I had already been behind
bars too many times. Not being certain I would get away with ending
anybody's life, (without ending up in prison) it prevented me from carrying
out the evil that was in my heart.
If we had been listening to the radio we might
have heard there was a race riot in progress
Once when I
was living in Rockford, Illinois and needed to settle a score with a man
in Chicago I took three friends and drove south. When I found the
neighborhood I wanted it seemed the streets were totally empty. We pulled
into a gas station to get better directions and realized it was closed
like everything else. We had decided to use the phone in front of the
station when it seemed as if every cop in Chicago pulled into the station
at the same time. They were in no mood for playing games as they tore our
car apart. They searched me at least three times. They found my gun of
course, but this seemed like such overkill that I couldn’t understand it.
If we had been listening to the radio we might have heard there was a race
riot in progress.
Well, well,
can you just imagine that. The Chicago police had caught four armed white
boys who had come to their fair city for a short visit during a race riot.
There was no point in even trying to talk to them. We were in a police
wagon with an overweight cop and a shotgun (he had the shotgun) before we
realized what was going on anyway.
I seriously
doubt Cook County jail has ever been more overcrowded. It took them
forever to process that many prisoners. I was beginning to think we would
never be fed. I believe it must have been when they were doing the paper
work that Chicago's finest began to realize they had been a little over
zealous. (Don't misunderstand, I'm not trying to be critical as I probably
would have done the same in their position.)
We had after
all broken no laws by attempting to use a public pay telephone. They had
no legal right to search us or our car. What this all boiled down to is
this. If the police turn up a gun during an "Illegal search and seizure"
it is a simple matter to have the evidence suppressed. No weapon, no
charges, Simple as that.
As it dawned
on someone that we would eventually walk away from these charges a
decision must have been made "to teach us a lesson". They used holding
cells where prisoners can be held temporarily while processing the paper
work or whatever. These cells might have been made for 30 or 40 prisoners
but now were bursting with 75 or more. During race riots at least, the
cells would be segregated. The Chicago police department placed the four
of us in an all black cell (No, I'm not trying to say it was painted
black).
They were looking for a rapist. To my horror,
I heard a woman say "That's him!"
Once when I
was in custody, I was taken to a lineup with a few other prisoners. We
were told to repeat some phrases and it soon become obvious they were
looking for a rapist. To my horror I heard a woman say "That's him". I
hadn't been in that city long enough to rape anybody if I had wanted to.
When I opened my mouth, a cop asked me if I would like to have my head
rammed through a nearby locker.
This seemed
to be an excellent time to exercise some discretion so I declined his
offer and closed my normally loud mouth. I waited till opportunity
presented itself and inquired as to the time of the alleged rape. When an
officer informed me I could hardly believe my ears. I had been lost
earlier in the day and had stopped (of all places to ask directions) at a
police station. My visit to that station had coincided precisely with the
time of the rape. To top it all off, I'm normally poor at remembering
names, but this desk Sergeant's name I remembered. His name was O'Malley. A
perfect stereotype name for a cop. Had it been anything different I doubt
very much I would have ever remembered it.
I told the
officer I had been at a station asking directions at the time in question
and told him the desk Sergeant's name. He turned out to be a really decent
guy and went to check my story instead of laughing in my face, which he
could have easily done. Lets face it, the problem was mine not his! He
left and made some phone calls to confirm my story.
Upon his
return the officer put an end to the whole rape business. Thank God for
that officer. It is experiences just like these, that can convince a
person not to return to any type of prison.
Jesse was killed in that gunfight
It was
amazing that with all the trouble I had gotten into, and the friends I
keep, that my record was almost clean! I had one "unlawful use of weapons'
and one "minor in possession" from a while back. The second charge came
one day when I was 19 or 20 years old. I was driving with a friend named
Jesse Witt. We each had a beer in our hand when we were pulled over by the
police. I didn’t think much of it, because the car was clean and there was
no warrants for either of us. Jesse however had an intense hatred of the
law. He had served a few years in Ionia (A Maximum Correctional Facility
in Michigan) and swore he was not going back.
Jesse was
normally very quiet and laid back, but could be fearless at times. Once
when one of the clubs from Detroit came to my place to visit, (I think
they wanted to know more about us) Jesse went back with them alone to
party. I think they had left before I even knew what was going on. A few
day later he showed up and said they had given him an impressive tour. It
was a crazy thing to do but Jesse wasn't good at backing down. I'm sure
the police would have let us go with our can of beer, but normally "very
quiet and laid back" Jesse couldn't keep his hatred inside, so I ended up
with a "minor in possession" on my nearly clean record. I had helped him
acquire a pistol (I think it was a 38) that he used in a shoot out with
the police. He was killed in that gunfight. He was a good friend that I
trusted and still think of him often.
I went to the door to find my porch filled with cops
One day I
was sharing drugs with some friends of mine from the bike club. We were
passing a marijuana pipe around when there was a knock at the door. I went
to the door to find my porch filled with cops. I gave a warning and
delayed opening the door as long as I could. When I opened it, a cop
informed me he had a warrant for Zip, (the name I was know by). He asked if
I was Zip. Although they didn't know my proper name, I was too well known
as Zip to lie about it. If they had a warrant, they must have had someone
who could identify me. All past attempts to prosecute me for anything
worth talking about had failed. I wasn't too worried about the cops and
their warrant. I told them I was Zip and after a search of my place turned
up nothing useful to them, we went downtown.
When I found
out what they had on me, I though it was a joke. That was a failure on my
part to recognize how determined the state of Michigan had become in their
efforts to remove me from society.
Remember
this was toward the end of the 1960's when the whole world seemed to be
smoking marijuana. In Ann Arbor, A collage town about fifty miles south of
Flint, they had got to the place where they were writing tickets for
possession of small amounts. For a few years, it seemed like everybody had
turned to drugs. I had sold a nickel bag to some guy who had been busted
for something, and was ready to do anything to keep out of prison.
The Governor
of the state of Michigan had declared war on the bike clubs. This may have
had something to do with it, I don't know.
The police
informed me I had sold a teaspoon of marijuana to their guy, and he would
testify against me. Apparently I had made a second sale they also knew
about. The plan was to get me with one of the two sales. It seemed like
such a waste of their time considering all the things I was mixed up in.
In no time, I made bond and was back on the street.
This was a
time in my life totally given to drugs. I was being destroyed by them.
During this time I was living in an old and large house in a rough part of
town. I had rented a second house nearby where I could go to hide or
sleep. My main house had a third floor that was all one big room. I fixed
up the third floor to hold my drug parties in. I had spent weeks turning
it into a place people would never forget. It was filled with optical
illusions and things to confound the mind at the best of times. I have
seen people leave that were not on drugs because of all the optical
illusions confusing their mind. There was an unending parade of people at
the door hoping to gain access to the trip room. No one would think of
visiting without bring a gift of drugs.
My lawyer said they were charging
me with something unusual
It was about
a year before my trial date on that nickel bag came due. I was so high all
the time that I didn't think a lot about it. My lawyer said they were
charging me with something unusual.
Law
enforcement agencies were successful in taking down John Sinclair (Also
born in Flint, Michigan) by viewing marijuana as a narcotic. In July 1969
Sinclair was sentenced to prison for 9 ½ to 10 years for possession of two
marijuana cigarettes. Two-and-a-half years of legal and political battles
culminated at Crisler Arena in Ann Arbor on December 10, 1971, when 15,000
people attended the Free John Now Rally headlined by John Lennon and Yoko
Ono. Just three days later, the Michigan supreme Court, on its own motion,
ordered Sinclair released and later overturned his conviction, upholding
his contention that Michigan's marijuana statutes were unconstitutional
and void.
The Judge said I was facing twenty years to life if convicted
I was being
charged with "Sale of an illegal narcotic". John’s possession charge got
him ten years. My charge was "sales" which carried a 20 year minimum and a
possibility of life if convicted. Yes, I said the charges carried a twenty
to life sentence if convicted of selling a teaspoon of marijuana. As I
said, they had me on a second sale. If I found a way to beat the first
charge, they were going to prosecute me on the second one. I was looking
at as much as two life sentences if they pushed it. I believe this law was
intended for opium, heroin, or cocaine, etc. but not marijuana as it is
not considered a narcotic.
I was under
the influence of too many drugs to fully appreciate what the state of
Michigan was trying to do to me. On the first day of my trial, I was still
thinking I was invincible. As the proceedings began and I heard the
evidence being presented against me, my invincibility began to dissipate.
The judge asked me if I understood the seriousness of the charges against
me. He said I was facing twenty years to life if convicted. He also made
note of a second charge pending. It was about then I began to see the case
was going to be of a more serious nature than I had anticipated. I was
feeling more than a bit uncomfortable while the jury selection was taking
place.
Obviously,
they wanted me off their streets, so I began to formulate my own plan to
accomplish this. As the day wore on, the drugs wore off. What seemed like
many hours later the judge said "It's getting late in the day and I'm
going to adjourn court till nine A.M. tomorrow morning". He called me to
the bench and said I was still on bond and therefore free to go till nine
A.M. the following day. Unlike John Sinclair, I had no plans to sit in
prison and wait for laws to change, with or without my help.
I went home
and made my plans to leave town. I stopped across the street at the pool
hall to say good bye to Samson, who ran the place. When I told him I was
going he emptied the pool tables and pinball machines and give me all the
cash he could scrap up. He hugged my neck and told me to be careful.
It was late
evening when Gypsy Jack pulled up in his hearse. Jack was a living legend
among bikers. He wore a ring in his nose before I did. (something unheard
of back then) He was once featured on a TV show called "Real People". I
told Jack I was leaving and he asked me if I wanted to climb into the back
of his hearse with his old lady. (Not his wife, Peggy) I declined and we
said our goodbyes.
For the next 10 years I was a fugitive
with the police hot on my trail
I decided to
go to Canada because the place was full of American draft dodger at the
time. I hoped the Canadians would assume I was just another draft dodger
hiding out from the Vietnam conflict. I got together a sleeping bag and
what little cash I could find on such short notice. About midnight I was
saying goodbyes and about ready to go when the neighborhood police showed
up. They were young guys and new on that beat. They had heard about the
trip room and asked if I would show it to them. They may have been told to
keep an eye on me that night. We visited for a while and after they left,
I did likewise.
A friend and
my old lady drove me into Canada Via the Detroit, Windsor border. We
thought with more traffic at the Windsor border it would be easier to
cross than at the Sarnia crossing. To my dismay I found Windsor too small
to hide in. When my friend drove me to Chatham, the next city, it proved
to be almost as small. They needed to hurry home before I was discovered
missing. Chatham would have to do, because we were running out of time. I
told my old lady goodbye knowing I might not ever see her, or our son
again.
They
continued the trail without me and the jury found me guilty. The judge
sentenced me to 25 to 40 years in prison. He then issued a Federal warrant
for "flight to avoid prosecution." For the next 10 years I was a fugitive
with the police hot on my trail. I had a number of narrow escapes.
I was
working at a record store in Toronto, Ontario one day when I had
volunteered to run an errand to the office supply store across the street.
On my return trip I noticed a police cruiser pass on the opposite side of
the street. Always alert for signs of trouble, I tensed up but continued
walking. He thought he recognized me and made a u-turn on that busy
street. Leaping out of his car he confronted me there on the sidewalk as I
was about to enter the record store. The odds didn't seem to be too bad
against me since we were on Yonge Street near the corner of Bloor. That's
one of the busiest places in the city. The sidewalks were full of people
and the street was jammed with cars. I knew the subway was very close by
and it was after all only one cop. He seemed a little unsure of himself
and I thought I could bluff my way out of this.
As we sat in
his car he started to tell me I was wanted. He had not arrested or
handcuffed me so I knew he wasn't sure who I was. I told him he was wrong
as he stared at me trying to remember. Soon he started to tell me how I
had changed my appearance and he was right. I keep telling him he was
mistaken and that I worked at the record store we were parked in front of.
I was
beginning to feel a bit uncomfortable when he waved at another cruiser
that happened to drive by. When that officer came up to his window he
asked him if he could identify me. After a long hard look he said no. I
kept on lying and soon had them convinced they had made a mistake. They
decided to release me. However, one of them said he'd return to the record
store where I was working and he'd show me a mug shot of my twin brother!
Of course, I didn't wait for him to return with that photo.

On another
occasion when I was living in a boarding house, I heard someone speaking
in the hall way. Being on the second floor, I opened my door slowly and
looked down the stairway to see who it was. The police had entered the
building and were speaking to my landlord. I could hear them well enough
to tell they were looking for someone. There was a small chance they had
the building surrounded.
I was on the
second floor and knew it would not be easy to slip away unnoticed. I
thought my best opportunity for escape was to hide in someone else's room.
I remember picking up a large kitchen knife as I hid myself in another
room. I was prepared to end my life rather than be locked up forever. The
police did not search the entire building and I was eventually able to
make my escape.
One of my
worst experiences was in northern Ontario where I hid at a farmhouse near
Algonquin Park. I was standing in the driveway late one afternoon when two
cars drove up, both filled with R.C.M.P. (Royal Canadian Mounted Police).
It was
wintertime with snow deeper in places that I am tall. I dreaded running in
the bitterly cold weather, and without snow shoes or food. I decided I'd
better try to bluff my way through again.
I knew a hail of gunfire could stop
me from ever reaching the woods
I answered a
few questions but soon realized the Mountie asking them was not believing
my answers. Running seemed to be my only hope, so I made a dash for the
distant forest. I knew a hail of gunfire could stop me from ever reaching
the woods. I was unarmed and the odds were against me.
Evidently I
took The Mounties by complete surprise. They thought I couldn't get far in
such cold weather and deep snow, so they didn't pursue me immediately.
They had underestimated my determination to elude capture. Apparently it
didn't take them long to realize the seriousness of that error. I learned
later that within hours they brought in dogs and tried to pick up my
trail.
When I began
running, I threw away my long fur coat because it slowed me down. That was
a mistake I soon regretted. The icy wind threatened to freeze me to death
as I ran. It seemed incredibly slow with every step a struggle against the
snow and bitter cold.
I came to
the shallow end of a lake with a huge marshy area covered with ice and
snow. The marsh went right up to the road which by now I knew would be
infested with Mounties. The lake was much too big to go around leaving me
with only one unpleasant choice. I began crossing the marsh when my worst
fears were realized. The ice was thinner than I had hoped and it broke. My
feet were soaked. How long I wondered before they began to freeze.
I continued
running as the odds mounted against me. The sun was going down, leaving me
with no sense of direction. Running parallel to a road now became
necessary. If I ventured too far into the bush and got lost, I ran the
risk of becoming little more than an interesting article in the news when
the spring thaw revealed my body. Freezing to death while lost in the
"Great Canadian Wilderness" was not the happy ending I had envisioned for
my life.
I worked my
way parallel to a road as exhaustion set in. It had become fairly dark and
I was stumbling more and falling often. At one point I rolled down a
somewhat steep embankment. Had it been much bigger I might have been
seriously injured or worse.
I realized I was freezing to death
It must have
been close to midnight when I was starting to hallucinate from the cold. I
actually felt warm again when I realized I was freezing to death. Being
totally exhausted and hungry didn't help the situation either. Refusing to
lay down in the snow and give up, I came out on the road to look for help.
The road had been plowed and that made walking a little easier. I had not
walked far when I found a small cabin with lights still burning at that
late hour. Dragging myself to their door, I knocked and hoped for the
best.
I was
greeted by a couple in their forty's. When I asked for help they took me
in without any hesitation. They set me by the fire and wrapped me up in
blankets. It took some effort to remove the frozen boots. Perhaps the
constant running was what keep me from losing my feet. Thankfully, I
didn't lose so much as a toe even though the boots were actually frozen
onto my feet! (Thank God!) They gave me some warm food and tried to dry my
clothes.
I told them
the police were after me and asked if they had seen them around. They said
they hadn't. I told them I was going to try and make it to Barry's Bay, a
small nearby town. When I felt nearly revived and thawed out, I got ready
to leave. They asked me if I wanted to wait in the house while they drove
into Barry's Bay. They said they could see if there was a roadblock or any
police presents at all.
I welcomed
their offer knowing this information could bring some peace of mind. They
returned within an hour informing me the way seemed clear. I thanked these
kind people for their help and continued upon my journey with renewed
vigor.
Had all this
taken place in a large city, the outcome may have varied greatly. People
seem to be different in a rural area. Your life could easily depend on
your nearest neighbor and vise, versa. I doubt the thought that I was a
threat to them ever crossed their minds. Likewise I never gave way to
thoughts that they could betray me, or return with the Mounties.
I knew the police would be waiting for me at
a roadblock a few miles down the road
Most of the
night I continued running. Just after sunrise I was able to contact a
friend. He helped me change my appearance and bought me a bus ticket.
The tickets
agents seemed quite interested in me. As I waited for the bus they kept
looking my way. I boarded the bus and an hour later it stopped for lunch.
A man whom I recognized to be a plainclothes policeman strolled into the
restaurant for coffee and casually sat down by the bus driver. Evidently
the ticket agents had tipped off the police, and I knew they would be
waiting for me at a roadblock a few miles down the road.
As we were
boarding the bus the plainclothes officer got in his car. When the bus
pulled out, the officer drove out ahead of us and turned in the opposite
direction. So I saw my opportunity. I told the bus driver to let me off
the bus, and I hurried back to the gas station next to the restaurant,
where I called for a taxi. When the taxi came I jumped in and crouched on
the floor, telling the driver to leave quickly. He did so, and informed me
that the police were driving in as we were driving out! The taxi dropped
me off at a little store several miles down the road. I contacted a friend
who drove me to Peterborough, where I hid in a movie theater until there
was a bus leaving for Toronto. Once in that big city I began to breathe
more freely. Very few people could possibly understand the torment I
suffered as a fugitive.
For 10 years
I lived in fear, running for my life. The police were everywhere I turned.
Relentless as they were in their pursuit, I found myself being pursued by
an invisible Presence far more persistent. I know now that unseen Presence
was the Holy Spirit. He reminded me of some things I had learned in
childhood--of a place called heaven which God has prepared for people who
love Him, and a place called hell for those who turn their backs on Him. I
began to think a lot about the future life. After suffering so much in
this life, I didn't want to spend eternity in a place of torment with no
chance of escape!
I remember
one time when I was out in the country, sitting on a fence. With half a
bottle of wine in my hand and the other half in me, I started reflecting
on my past life. Understandably, I had a deep seated hatred of my life.
With a desire to dwell on something pleasant, my mind wondered to my
childhood. There was a short time when I had attended church with my
parents. In all honesty, most of what was said had slipped through my mind
without taking a hold. There was a part that stayed with me. Those songs
we used to sing never left me. It was not uncommon to find me singing one
of them. Yes, I could still remember the words. If you can picture this, I
was sitting on a fence, drinking, wanted by the police, as wicked as a man
could get, singing songs I learned in church!
“Jesus, hold
my hand, I need thee every hour. Thru this pilgrim land, protect me by thy
power. Hear my feeble plea, O Lord look down on me. When I kneel in
prayer, I hope to meet you there. Blessed Jesus, hold my hand”.
I knew God was not happy
with the life I was living
As I sang my
eyes began to fill with tears. Though I was a hardened convict, here I was
fighting back tears when I felt the presence of The Holy Spirit. They told
me later that was called conviction. It is the work of the Holy Spirit
calling people to seek God's forgiveness. I knew God was not happy with
the life I was living, but I lacked understanding in these matters. What I
did understand was what this life had taught me. “Never show weakness to
anybody”! If you can act cold and hard enough, nobody will want to try
you. Have you ever considered the behavior of people behind bars, or in a
bike club, or this type of situation in general. My lifestyle did not
permit me to show signs of weakness to anyone, and I thought the tears
were a sign of weakness. I wiped away the tears and resisted The Holy
Spirit. He is mighty, but also very gentle; He will not force himself on
anyone. He stepped back and let me go my way.
One day I
heard a man talking about Jesus. He said that when Jesus spoke to the
crowds some of the people would say, "He is a mad man! He has a devil!"
while others would say, "These aren't the words of a mad man. We
understand what He is saying. These are the words of life." I wondered
what I would think of Jesus' teachings if I read about them. Would I be
able to understand what He said? I decided that if I ever had an
opportunity to examine a Bible, I would look into it and see what Jesus
had to say.
It didn't
seem like that was likely to happen any time soon. There were no Bibles in
my home and I'm pretty sure none of my friends owned a Bible. When it came
time to choose between buying alcohol, drugs or a Bible....well, you got
the idea. However, you don't think those kind of thoughts without God
acting upon them.
I was living
in downtown Vancouver B.C. at the time and had gone to the Pacific Centre
Mall which was a short walk from home. I was living with a woman named
Marion who wanted to do some shopping and I had reluctantly agreed to tag
along. We were walking down a long corridor with stores on both sides. She
would enter a store while I waited in the hallway. When she returned, we
would go down a few more doors, and I'd wait again.
I saw a booth where two Gideons were
giving away new testaments
I was
sitting there waiting when I saw a booth where two Gideons were giving away new
testaments. You know who the Gideons are if you've ever stayed in a motel
or hotel. They leave Bibles everywhere but you so seldom ever actually see
one of the Gideons. They tend to be "low profile - behind the scene" kind
of people.
The Holy
Spirit started speaking to me. "The answers to the questions and problems
in your life can be found in that book" This was just what I wanted and
the price was right. I'd take a free Bible, but the thought of purchasing
one never once crossed me mind.
I was just
about to approach the booth and receive my free Bible when I looked around
and realized where I was. This was a public place with people all around
me. I was so ungodly I was ashamed to let someone see me even touch a
Bible. The Holy Spirit has to be the most gentle being in existence. He
will never force his will upon anyone, great or small. He can however be
very persuasive. He kept gently telling me I needed to get that Bible. I
really wanted it, but there were too many people around and so I just keep
walking past the booth. I'm thankful God doesn't give up easily. He keep
tugging at me to get a Bible.
I discovered the message of that
Testament
was not mysterious at all
I had walked
some distance past these gentlemen when I could resist the Holy Spirit no
longer. I turned to Marion and asked her if she would mind going back to
that booth and getting me one of those free books.
Well...I
wish I could describe the look she got on her face. I told her not to come
back and hand it to me, just put the book in her purse and I'd get it when
we got home.
God must
have been involved because it was probably the only time in her life that
she did exactly what I asked her to do! Later when we arrived home, she
brought the Testament to me. Looking me in the face she said "Listen,
don't you go getting mixed up in something weird!" I assured her there was
nothing to worry about, I was only curious about some things.
I began
reading a portion each day. I started with Matthew and found what Jesus
taught. I discovered the message of that Testament was not mysterious at
all; I found it plain and easy to understand. Jesus is the Son of God and
came to earth in human flesh so that He might redeem mankind by dying on
the cross. A day of judgment is coming but there is forgiveness for
anyone who will confess his sins and trust in Christ as his Redeemer.
One day I
felt I could resist God's love no longer. On July 28, 1980, I knelt down
down on an old chair we had in our living room and prayed a short prayer.
I told God I was sorry for the things I had done. I couldn't change those
things, but I could change what I would do from now on. I knew I had hurt
a lot of people and I regretted it very much. If he would forgive me like
I read in the Bible, I would start doing things right. I told him I wanted
to be a Christian and to start living like he wanted me to. I meant what I
said. I did not feel like I had been struck with lightning, but something
was different.
From that
day on I have never been the same. What the Bible says in 2 Corinthians
5:17 is true: "If any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things
are passed away; behold, all things are become new". I got up from my
prayer and went to bed.
The first
thing I learned the next morning as a new Christian was what peter was
talking about in 1 Peter 4:12 "Beloved, think it not strange concerning
the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened
unto you" I had changed sides in this war and the one I used to serve had
become my bitter enemy. (Truth is, he always was my enemy) I lived in a
downtown area and received my mail early in the morning. As I opened it I
found out a man I had been doing business with had cheated me out of four
hundred dollars. I become angry and started planning revenge. I wanted to
choke him to death, or at least beat him senseless!
The Holy
Spirit begin speaking to me. If you want to serve me than you must do
things differently now. I have forgiven you for so much, shouldn't you
forgive him? I knew God was right. I still wanted to hurt the man as I
began thinking about what it meant to be a Christian. This was on my mind
day and night.
God was showing me how my life was
built upon lies
I was at
work when I was handed my pay check. I took it to the bank intending to
cash it. The Holy Spirit spoke to me again. I was the next one in line
when he asked me who's name was on the check? I still had the pay check in
my hand when I turned around and left the bank. God was showing me how my
life was all built upon lies. I knew I couldn't serve God and go on tell
these lies. As these thoughts went through my mind I began to realize some
major changes were needed in my life. The Holy Spirit Helped me understand
That I could not go on living like I had been and still serve God. I knew
exactly what I had to do. I would turn myself into the police and start
life over again based on a different set of principles. How could I
compare life in prison to eternity in hell. My life on earth would end one
day, but eternity in hell has no ending.
It was about
noon when I walked off the job, telling my employer I had to get my life
straitened out with God. I went home to tell Marion my plans and say
goodbye. She asked me how I could desert her like that. It seemed likely I
would die in prison. She did everything in her power to talk me out of
surrendering to the police. As the fruitlessness of her efforts became
apparent, I said I would like to go to church on my way to surrender. I
went to a church and after talking to the pastor, he said he could baptize
me before I left. After I was baptized, the pastor offered to take me to
The Mounties. I thanked him and we set off to find a police station. When
we had found the R.C.M.P. in Buraby, British Colombia, The pastor and
Marion walked me inside and up to the counter. The Mountie on duty asked
if he could help us with anything.
I found myself standing in the
police station about to
do the unthinkable, that I might please God.
My friends
were bikers, rapists, thieves, drug dealers, prostitutes, forgers,
burglars, etc. and they had planed their various business ventures in my
presents. Everybody I knew hated the Man. (The police) In the world I had
lived in, it had always been us against them. I had been taught to do
anything to keep from being caught. I had jumped bond and successfully
eluded capture for ten years after encountering the police more than a
dozen times. I had a full set of identification, a good job, a woman I had
lived with for a few years with plans to marry. Now, two days after I had
accept Jesus as my savior and been born again, I find myself standing in
the police station about to do the unthinkable, that I might please God.
Yes, I said
to the Mountie, I am here to surrender. My real name is Ken Burton and I
am a fugitive. I have become a Christian and want to face the charges
against me. I need to return to Michigan and serve a 25 to 40 years prison
sentence I've been running from. Here is all my false identification. I
have been living in your country illegally for ten years and have eluded
capture many times. I will tell you all the names I have used and the jobs
I have had. In fact, I will tell you anything you want to know about me,
here I am! After listening to my story, that Mountie only wanted to know
one thing. He looked me in the face and asked "Mr. Burton, have you ever
had any psychiatric treatment?" To this day, I find it humorous that the
officer was reluctant to lock me up. After some more conversation and
seemingly against his will, he agreed to take me into custody. The officer
acted as if he were doing me a favor when it become apparent I was not
leaving. He locked me up and they began checking my story. When they
concluded I had been honest with them for the first time in my life, they
were elated.
By the next
morning they were bring people back to my cell to see me. “There he is.
Walked in here last night on his own!! Said he had become a Christian and
needed to start pleasing God with his life now”. They were all walking
around grinning and shaking their heads. A man from the Department of
Immigration came early in the day to interview me. It was then established
that I had entered Canada illegally. Arrangements were made for my
immediate transfer to isolation at their downtown facility. When it came
time to be placed in the cell, I asked if I might have my bible. The
officer in charge said no. Another officer said “Oh let him have it”. I
believe he had heard about my surrendering after I became a Christian and
was somewhat sympathetic. The first officer insisted “He’s not allowed to
have it”. Who would have thought they’d have wanted to deprive me of my
bible. Just look at the effect it was having on me in the few days I had
been reading it!! After observing the effect God’s word was having on me,
a wise law enforcement agency should have placed bibles in ever cell they
had. In a deficient and disappointed state I was led to my cell. A short
time passed and that “somewhat sympathetic officer” opened the cell door
with my bible in his hand. “Here,” he said with an outstretched hand. I
said thanks as we seemed to have traded understanding smiles. There was
such a desire in me to learn more about God, and from all appearances I
was going to have the time to do so.
Suddenly the Holy Spirit came upon me
While
waiting to be transferred to Michigan, I began to have doubts. Satan tried
his best to discourage me. A pastor came to visit me. As we talked, he
looked through the thick glass of the visiting room and could see I was
crying, so he began to pray over the intercom. Suddenly the Holy Spirit
came upon me! I felt as if I had been struck by lightning--something
seemed to explode inside my body! I began jumping up and down, praising
God! My doubts had all been settled.
The Canadian
authorities delivered me to the U.S. border (I think it was the crossing
at Blain, Washington). The U.S. authorities escorted me to Bellingham,
Washington and to what I think was a county jail. My new accommodations
consisted of one large room with a row of cells across one side, for
sleeping.
He said "you will never get out of prison
alive!"
As a new
Christian, there were many things I needed to learn. My understanding of
the enemies tactics and weapons was about to increase. As the heavy steel
door slammed noisily behind me, I was approached by the welcoming
committee. Seems like prisoners always wanted to know one thing, "What are
you in here for?" Well...I started telling my story and did not get very
far before being interrupted. "HEY!!, come over here, you gotta hear this
one!" The committee grew in size and I was asked to started over again.
This time I got a little farther into my story before I heard, "Wait a
minute!" Are you trying to tell us, you had a job and a good set of false
identification. You were living with a woman planning to be married. The
police hadn't caught you in ten years. And you surrendered to serve a 25
to 40 years prison sentence and all the other charges they now have! To me
it seemed like the most natural thing in the world to do. Yes, I answered,
I have become a Christian and now I want to please God with my life.
Another prisoner looked me in the face with udder disbelief and said "You
ain't got a lick of sense in your head!!! You will never get out of prison
alive!" (Looking back on this incident, I am able to see now that God had
not sent them to encourage me.)
By the next
morning I needed to think, and spend some more time in prayer. I decided
to stayed in my cell, instead of joining the other prisoners in the large
room for the day. A life in prison was nothing to look forward to and I
must confess to some self pity and discouragement. As I began to focus
more on my situation than on God's ability, desire and intent to work in
my life, discouragement tightened it's grip. An inability to meet a need,
is not one of God's traits. Since having committed myself to him, I was
rapidly learning he would always meet my needs, even without my asking. As
I paced the small cell becoming more discouraged by the minute, help was
already on the way.
Only God would send a cop to
encourage and pray for a convict
A guard came
to the door and shouted my name. "I'm here, I answered." A tall woman in
uniform unlocked my door and introduced herself. "I'm Sharon Wagner from
the sheriff's department. I'm here to take your fingerprints. We want to
be sure that you are who you say you are." (Why on earth would anybody
want to impersonate me?) The deputy led me out of my cell and to a room
where she could take my prints. When Sharon saw I was downcast, she began
to make some small talk. She soon asked me if I had accepted Jesus as my
savior.
Yes, your
reading this right!! I'm in jail with a deputy sheriff taking my
fingerprints when the cop wants to know if I'm a Christian! I was so
thrilled to see another Christian I couldn't contain myself. Yes!, I said,
that’s the reason I'm in this place. I started telling her my whole story.
I told her about the way I used to live and how much trouble I had gotten
into. I went on to explain how God had forgiven me, and how I had
surrendered myself to please him. She may not have needed me to reveal my
discouragement as it was not well hidden. When I finished speaking, she
looked me in the face and said "You listen to me". I was once a prisoner
on the other side of this building where they keep the women. Look what he
has done in my life. Today I work for the sheriff's department. He will
NEVER leave you or turn his back on you. It is written in God's word
"...he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion..."
There is no need to be discouraged. Let's pray. We bowed our heads and
Sharon prayed for me.
God is truly
amazing. Who else would send a cop to encourage and pray for a convict.
Needless to point out, I reentered my cell greatly encouraged. In a very
short time I believe it became obvious to all that someone was laboring,
behind the scenes, in my behalf. A few day later I was in my cell with 5
or 6 other prisoners answering questions about the bible. They had started
reading them and wanted to know what I found in there. Sharon returned
with some Christian literature and more encouragement. That had to be very
startling to the other inmates as the deputies are not widely know for
their love of the prisoners.
In due time
I was back in Flint, Michigan, standing before the judge, He said, "I am
going to resentence you," and I wondered what was coming. To my surprise,
he threw out the sentence of 25 to 40 years, and gave me 3 years'
probation. It seemed too good to be true! He also dismissed the Federal
warrant. The Canadian authorities dropped all the charges they had against
me for the 10 years I was running in their country.
I'm very
thankful for the great love and mercy God has shown toward me. He turned
my life around and called me to be an evangelist. I have the privilege of
visiting many places across the country and sharing my testimony with
various groups. I enjoy telling what God has done for me.
I was a
loser, but now I am a winner since I teamed up with Jesus Christ. I'm glad
I stopped running. How about you? Are you running from God? He is pursuing
you because He loves you and wants to help you. If you will give yourself
up, He will make you a new person. I know from experience that if you will
put your life in His hands, He will give you a new start, and help you to
be a winner.
GOD LOVES YOU
"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that
whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life"
(John 3:16).
MAN IS A SINNER AND SIN SEPARATES HIM FROM
GOD
"For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God" (Romans
3:23).
CONFESS YOUR SINS
"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our
sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9).
RECEIVE JESUS CHRIST AS YOUR SAVIOR
"But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons
of God, even to them that believe on his name" (John 1:12).
Pray this simple prayer right now:
"Dear God, thank You for loving me. I realize that I am a sinner, and
ask You to forgive me through Jesus Christ, who died for my sins. I accept
Jesus right now as my Savior and lord of my life. Amen."
LET ME TELL YOU A LITTLE ABOUT GOD
Please let
me tell you a little about God, his creations and his plans, so you may
understand him better. Have you ever considered the great detail he has
placed in his work? Even a causal look is sufficient to astound. Look at
anything!! Did you know there are thousands of know species of
butterflies. We have about 750 different ones here in the USA alone. There
are 30,000 species of known to exist. We have about 8,600 species of living birds.
The number of
different forms, including subspecies totals around 30,000, of which
nearly 1,700 are indigenous to North America. The largest living bird is
without doubt the Ostrich standing 9 feet high and can weigh over 350 lbs.
The smallest bird in the world is generally agreed to be the Bee
Hummingbird (Mellisuga helenae) from Cuba which weighs a mere 0.056oz.
Consider the
bugs! Insects are the largest class in the animal kingdom. Did you know
that there are many more kinds of insects on earth than any other kind of
living creature? It's hard to imagine, but 95% of all the animal species
on the earth are insects! Millions of insects can exist in a single acre
of land! Over one million separate species have been described and
entomologists believe that there could be ten times that many yet to be
discovered. There are some small parasitic insects which are less then
1/100 of an inch in length when fully grown. The largest moth on the
planet checks in with a frightening 18" wingspan.
Have you
ever really seen or considered a 2000 pounds giraffe with his head 18 feet
in the air? What about an ant eater?
He can extent his tongue 2 feet out of the mouth and thinks happiness is
finding a giant ant hill! Look at a toucan, a warthog, a toad, or an ostrich.
They are truly awesome!! These animals not only declare God's existence
but also show me he has an incredible sense of humor (Why not? We were
made in his image and we have a sense of humor)
Did you know
there are over 60,000 species of trees. The largest reach higher than 350
feet with a diameter of more 20 feet at the base. It's another of Gods
miracles that can take water and dissolved mineral nutrients out of the
ground through the roots of a tree and deliver them to the topmost
branches by osmotic pressure. Think about that. There is no pump (or motor
to run it) in a tree! I've read there are some Bristlecone pine trees over
4,500 years old.
I'm told the
earth is 7,926 miles in diameters. It is tilted at 23.45 degrees and that gives
us the different seasons. We are part of a solar system that has nine
major planets and more than sixty moons and satellites. Our solar system is
approximately 6,000,000,000 miles across. In the center is the sun. It's
average distance from the earth is 93,000,000 miles. It is 865,400 miles
in diameter, making it 1,300,000 times the size of our earth. The surface
temperature is around 12,000 degrees. I have read estimates for the center
ranging from 15,000,000 to as high as 40,000,000 degrees. Flames leap off
the surface from 25,000 to as high as 500,000 miles. Our sun travels
through space at 43,200 miles per hour. That's about 12 miles per second.
When I went to school they told me our sun was considered a dwarf.
A star
called Antares is 390,000,000 miles in diameter. What about Epsilon Auriga,
said to be over 2,000,000,000 miles in diameter and the largest known single
object in the universe. (Remember I said our solar system is only
6,000,000,000 miles across) How much power do you think it took to make
that star? We are now discussing things so great in size, that they must
be measured by something other than miles. We now use light years. Light
travels at 186,324 miles per second or about 5,878,000,000,000 miles in a
years time. So, one light year is 5,878,000,000,000 miles. Now consider
this, Our solar system is part of a bigger system called a galaxy. Our
galaxy is called the milky way. It is approximately 100,000 light years
across. We are about 28,000 light years from the center of the milky way.
As the earth and other planets of our solar system orbit the sun, our sun
likewise, orbits around the center of the milky way.
It takes our
sun more than 200,000,000 years to complete a single revolution. In fact
our whole galaxy is also turning on it's axis. The milky way is believed
to contain 400,000,000,000 stars. (That's not counting the planets) If you
need to pause here to catch your breath, go ahead and you may want to get
a chair before you read this next line. We now believe there are
100,000,000,000, galaxies like our milky way. It is said in Psalms 147:4
that God calls all the stars by their names.
HAVE YOU EVER WONDERED IF THERE IS LIFE OUT THERE?
Have you
ever wondered if there is life out there? Lets look in the Bible
! Revelation 12:12 "Therefore rejoice, ye heavens, and ye that dwell in
them". It reads heavens, not heaven where God's throne is. This is talking
about all the stars and planets. And again, "ye that dwell in THEM"
Jeremiah 33:22 "the host of heaven cannot be numbered" It is starting to
sound to me like there could be a lot of life when I read "cannot be
numbered" Where could all of this life have come from? Psalm 33:6 "By the
word of the Lord were the heavens made; and all the host of them by the
breath of his mouth". It seems evident God made "the host of them" the
same way he made us. Have you read how God made Adam? Genesis 2:7 "And the
Lord God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his
nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul". Yes, we were
all given life the same way," by the breath of his mouth".
The bible
tells us about some of the beings God has created. For instance we read in
Isaiah 6:1-2 "In the year that king Uzziah died I saw also the Lord
sitting upon a throne, high and lifted up, and his train filled the
temple. Above it stood the seraphims: each one had six wings; with twain
he covered his face, and with twain he covered his feet, and with twain he
did fly". We don't know how many seraphims there are, but we can see they
have six wings, a face, feet, and can fly and speak.
The prophet
Ezekiel seen the cherubim and gives us a very detailed description. You
can read this for yourself if you like. Here is a small part of what's
found in Ezekiel 1:5-28 & 10:8-22. "The cherubim "had the likeness of
a man. And every one had four faces, and every one had four wings. And
their feet were straight feet; and the sole of their feet was like the
sole of a calf's foot: and they sparkled like the color of burnished
brass. And they had the hands of a man under their wings on their four
sides; and they four had their faces and their wings. Their wings were
joined one to another; they turned not when they went; they went every one
straight forward. As for the likeness of their faces, they four had the
face of a man, and the face of a lion, on the right side: and they four
had the face of an ox on the left side; they four also had the face of an
eagle".
The cherubim
are mentioned other places in the bible. We read of God putting them on
guard duty after he removed Adam and Eve from the Garden of Eden. Genesis
3:24 "So he drove out the man; and he placed at the east of the garden of
Eden Cherubims, and a flaming sword which turned every way, to keep the
way of the tree of life". Some of my readers may already know that this is
the type of being Lucifer is. We find this in Ezekiel 28:14 "Thou art the
anointed cherub that covereth; and I have set thee so: thou wast upon the
holy mountain of God; thou hast walked up and down in the midst of the
stones of fire". We have no record of other Cherubims turning against God,
only Lucifer.
And let us
not forget the "four beasts" John saw. (beast came from the Greek word
'zoa' and means living ones or creatures) Revelation 4:6-8..four beasts
full of eyes before and behind. And the first beast was like a lion, and
the second beast like a calf, and the third beast had a face as a man, and
the fourth beast was like a flying eagle. And the four beasts had each of
them six wings about him; and they were full of eyes within: and they rest
not day and night, saying, Holy, holy, holy, Lord God Almighty, which was,
and is, and is to come".
WHAT DOES GOD HAVE PLANED FOR THE SAVED?
I have only
begin to scratch the surface of the wonders of God's creation. I want to
show you a view of God you may not have ever considered. God is an
administrator of the affairs of his universe. As any other administrator
he delegates duties and responsibilities to those he can trust to carry
out his will. Sometimes he will tend to a matter himself, however he more
often will delegate. (You can be sure he will see to it that his will is
ultimately accomplished) Think about it. How many times have you read of
God sending a delegate. Look at Psalm 34:7 "The angel of the Lord
encampeth round about them that fear him, and delivereth them". Yes, it's
God who will deliver us, but he sent his delegate to accomplish it.
I need you
to understand this because of what I want to tell you. God's plan for
those that are willing, is to help him administrate the affairs of his
universe. I read in 2 Timothy 2:12 "If we suffer, we shall also reign with
him". Reign over who and what? Read it again in Revelation 1:6 "And hath
made us kings and priests unto God and his Father". Yes, "KINGS and
PRIESTS"!! Lets look at Romans 8:16-17 "The Spirit itself beareth witness
with our spirit, that we are the children of God: And if children, then
heirs; heirs of God, and joint-heirs with Christ..". An heir is "one who
inherits" and true Christians are "joint-heirs with Christ"!!! Listen to
what Jesus Said in Revelation 3:21 "To him that overcometh will I grant to
sit with me in my throne, even as I also overcame, and am set down with my
Father in his throne". This is Gods word from the Bible and it said "sit
with me in my throne"
God found me
in the gutter and he wants me to help him administer the affairs of his
universe. My friend, let's get out of the sin business and be faithful to
God. If someone can't be faithful to God now, then when are they planning
to start. I gave up all to follow him, and now he wants to give me his
all!! I love him with all my heart and long for that day when I can be
with him. I am just so excited about Him.
kennethlburton@yahoo.com